这样的自己 不傻♥

什么时候
为了什么   再次沮丧

什么时候
为了什么   我开始感到绝望

当一切的事物随着时间的流逝
我无法掌握   一一失去

什么时候   开始
我的决定再也不是   决定

什么时候   开始
我不再是   自己

有多少个  ‘你’
真的懂我

不是我不说   而是
怎么说   也说不清

什么时候   开始
我再次走回   一个人   那安静的角落
反复思考着

我要的   是什么

我要的
其实   真的不多

但却是我遥远的   梦想


当一个人开始   感到寂寞   感到无助
会开始讲冷笑话

但有多少个‘你’
知道她正在强忍   眼中滚动的   泪水

不是否定   自己
而是
认真的   认清自己

要记得   这样的  自己
并不傻

解压中……


反复听着一首歌
也让我想了很多……

明天还要做工  晚安♥






处女座  by Kiwi

Life...

Somehow I felt relieve and blessed when I got my 2 weeks vacation before I start my attachment in order to let my injured knee a breath.

Anyway, my attachment went well and meet my objective. I did things with my conscience. So I'm happy with it. Anything unhappy just let it go.

Never update my blog for such along time which also indicate I never on my lappy for so long. I'm now updating my blog by using the blogger app. I've been waiting for this official app. And it's finally launch :)

It's a great app. Its easy access & allow me to update whenever I want without using my lappy and I love it!

Did manicure yesterday. It cost me only RM15. Hahahaha.. Thanks to Kaira for being so nice did for me. I like it very much.

And the red one is my sis's one.

Sogurt 50% off on 26.8.2011..!! *Yogurt Ice-cream*

Are you a yogurt ice-cream lover??

searching for delicious and affordable yogurt ice-cream?

Go to Sogurt!!

Yes! They are having 50% off for all ice-cream.

*How I wish I could have it tmrw too*

Thanks to my knee dislocation 2 weeks ago.

It's a long story.........zZz

So i share this lobang to ALL OF YOU!!!

FYI, Sogurt is my favourite yogurt ice-cream.

Do try out their unique Red Velvet Cake flavor & Chocolate Flavor twist!

It's awesome!

Anyway they do have variety of choice.

An important issue everyone will be queries about.

How much does it cost?

Tadda..

It's S$3/100grams

and now is 50% OFF!! 

*Only available on 26 Aug 2011 from 4pm to 8pm*

These are the flavors they selling.

Don't miss out such good deal!

Go down to any Sogurt Outlet to enjoy the fantastic ice-cream!

More information on

Sogurt's Website

Sogurt's Facebook Page

Sogurt's Twitter

McDonald 1-for-1 Deals♥

Here comes the Great Deals!
Thanks for QingLin to share the lobang...

• Print or flash this picture on your mobile phone to redeem.
• valid with any a-la-carte Chicken McGrill sandwich, excluding Salad Chicken McGrill
• Valid in Singapore from 26 August to 31 August 2011 except breakfast hours.
• Only one redemption per transaction allowed.
• Not available via McDelivery and institutional stores.
• While stock last!

我

你可以討厭我
你可以恨我

但我還是同樣一句話告訴你
‘這就是我’

我不喜歡利用別人
同樣的
請你也不要來利用我

我不喜歡裝著很熱心   然後卻在別人後面捅人一刀
又或者   發生事情時才搬出所有事來怪罪于他人

認識我的人都知道
對於這種人   我為他們封的稱號叫做
雞蛋人

所以不要自以為是   沒有人要你的好   也沒有人拿刀拿槍逼你
是你們自願奉獻的   所以不要掉頭就把黑的說成白的

我可以對你很好
但要是你不分青紅皂白就誣衊我的朋友們
很對不起

我不會繼續浪費時間在你身上   因為   你不值

領悟

剛看到朋友在Facebook上寫的一番話

"一直emo沒有用，向前看比較重要！
要活在當下，剛要好好規劃自己。
希望不要一直再讓別人擔心了
我知道我自己在幹嗎，這些都是學習的過程…"

頓時有深深的領悟，也不自覺的對號入座
有什麽辦法能夠讓自己看的開點？
不要那麼執著？


始終沒有辦法讓自己開朗起來，
真的很討厭這樣的自己…


雖然人們常說，開心也是一天，不開心也是一天，
那何必讓不開心牽著你走？


還是安撫不了自己現在的情緒，
鬱悶+納悶…

Get over my mind

Finally came and clear the thick spider web on my bloggie. Sorry much!

anyway, this picture was taken a month ago I think.

I always trim only my fringe if you ever noticed.

yet, it's now all grown back!

So fast right?

hahahahaha XD

Had a gathering on Thursday.

I'm so sorry, although apologize don't really help.

It turn out wasn't a good one.

In fact, It's the WORST ever i had been hold for the past 7 years.

and this time is the most disapointed and full of unhappiness.

Total Failure.

Precisely, Sorry No Cure.

I do know apologize don't really help.

neither ease my thought nor others.

I have decide not to plan for the next gathering anymore.

Let them to decide and plan,

i've total worn up, and full of tears.

these are some of the pictures on that days.

We did went back to school, But just a short while.

HuiHui & Me holding the visitor pass.

HuiHui, Me, JiaHao & RenHui

We went to alots of places.

But It's not memorable, and not worthy to mention about it.

Sorry for full of apologizing and emoish post.

ciaoz...

Broken pieces

我的心很痛
我應該笑嗎？
我應該停止我愚蠢的眼淚嗎?
對他來說我的擔心是多餘的
是無謂的

你從來都不會覺得身邊會有人為你擔心
會有人常常心疼你
為你掉眼淚

我想裝傻
我想不理你
我想停止這些對你來說無所謂的行為

世界上不只有你會為別人擔心
你可不可以也為自己想一想

我很想生氣你
但我更心疼你
聽到你的聲音
淚水停不住
心真的很痛....

Ajisen ramen fever!!

Did i mention i kept on eating Ajisen Ramen recently?

haha

I just feel like eating it!

So, i had it as my meal of the day for consequents 2 days!

Woohoo!

But this time was went with my sister and had it at Bishan.

The service was POOR, But the food served nice and delicious!

*It taste much more better than the bugis outlet*

and this time i had Cha-shu ramen with sidedish of the small small red octopus

sister had the Volcano Ramen which I had the day before!

with a sidedish of fried whitefish!

It's awesome! I Lurve it!!!

But something I have to comment about is the presence of the food is rate 2/5, whereby the food is 4/5

and bugis outlet is totally opposite!! I do think they really need to standardize they quality??

hahaha!

I'm craving for Sakae Sushi Hi-tea buffet! Shall plan with my girls to have it soon!!

Lets end with some of my sister and my narci shots! lols...

*was trying out the new apps from my phone>.<*

ciaoz....

Important day♥

Important day.

This particular days wasn't today.

Wasn't yesterday, but the day before yesterday!

Haha. Don't ask me why so important,

It just so important and I feel like mention about it!

That's all! Lols!!!

We went to bought my new iPhone 4 White outfit and also paste the protector screen.

FYI, I've just bought my iPhone white on the last thursday which was the iPhone was launch on the 1st day.

Actually I'm not kiasu to grab it as it is launch on that day.

I was plan to sign my plan on that particular day, since my sister is only free on that day.

Just in case you're curioys why I need my sister to be present since I'm already over 18.

The reason is simple. Cause I want to get a cheaper line. Since my Sister can sign a corperate plan for me with more feature and benefits, and also a 20% off of the total bills. So why not?

So this is my iPhone look like. It's kinda fake on the front surface. Somehow look like a china fake iPhone.

But it look awesome on the back surface!!
the black one was paste with carbon paper. LOLS.

I just lurve it in a way that I dint regret to choose white instead of black!

Okay. Back to the topic. Shall tell about my lovely iPhone and some other stuff in next post! So stay tuned okay!

After that we were too hungry as I din eat or drink anything since I woke up, and it was already around 4pm!

So we went to have the Ajisen ramen at bugis.

He had the Tomyan seafood ramen with sidedish of seafood katsu. He lure seafood! So do I ! Lols.

And I had volcano ramen. It is damn shiok and I couldnt resist the spiciness and swab with him. Lols. Its rare that you will heard I say something is too spicy for me. And ya. And I had a sidedish of fried prawn.

Think the prawn wasn't fresh enough? Too sift when I bite.

The noodle also a bit not cooked. Haiis. Spoilt my mood!

Food is my life!

Later than we went to but koi before we heading to vivo city for some shopping and walk walk.

My GreenTea Machiato.

Have you tried? Is a MUST try okay!!!
and it shouldn't look like that lar.
haha. it should be seperated in 2 layer, but i just leave it too long, that's why end up like that.

We went to watch movie 'The Chinese Ghost Story'.

and had my lurve Nacho cheese!

Then we went to the deck to see the scenary.

And I tried out my iPhone night shoot. It's different for every snap! Lols.

Bye~

Emo-ish♥

Feel damn sienz right now...

I just found out, One of my super BFF treat me as a dust??!

Wtf!

I did so many things and treat her so nice, Yet! She don't give me damn!

I think of you and share with you whatever you like at the 1st moment!

Now I know what friendships are...

It can't  last long definitely!

Don't fake yourself and fool me anymore!

Why don't you just let me know if you don't care?

Why must you do all these thing to upset me?

Don't you feel guilty while hurting me?

Do you want me to remove your name from my list?

impossible!

I remembered... You once told me, 

'Friends are forever, regardless of social stage, and where we are; can't meet up or keep in touch, but we're always in ONE's heart...♥'

Do you still remember?

Okay, whatever you take me as..

I'm willing to be the fool, to be your follower, praying for you silently...

remain your status among my BFFs'

But you really hurt me so much....:'(

Year 3 liaw...♥

I feel so bad for not updating my blog for aged!

So dusty liaw... My reader statistics is going down day by days!

hahaha, feel bad to my fellow readers!

erm, don't really have the mood to write a so called detailed entry.

But just a brief one, No picx you going to see in this post!

Cause I have no camera or phone with cam.

I'm just that poor to have it! LOLS...

anyway, I had just started my year 3 of nursing,

It's still pretty fun afterall.

Not really that stressful yet cause it just week 2, 

nothing much beside some CBL for tutorial,

and also a pharmaco Quiz/test which consist of 30 Question is coming up on these wednesday.

Quite sienz, cause the 30 question is actually come from 4 modules of pharmacology from year 1 and year 2. 

The total marks are 10 and it will be added in my PRCP next sem. hahahaha...

a bit tense for this quiz, yet I haven't even 'smell' the book.

May god bless me! >.<

I also went to trim my fringe last saturday.

*will upload my pic IF I remember!*

The guy was trying to act like know me very well or to say like kind of old friend.

He like keep looking for topic to chat with me while he is just responsible to blow my hair.

He said I look like a sec 4 or 5 student only lor. You look very familiar....yadda yadda....

Which didn't really make me happy, I mean this phrase is a way to praise those girls to make them happy in order to make friend that kind. 

But for me, I think is very old school lor! I don't even bother to entertain him.

He also ask alots like where you stay ar, what you doing ar, where you studying ar.... Bla bla bla....

The most funniest thing he asked me is  'Why your fringe so long uhh??'

I was like : *think* the.....never cut then long lar!*roll eyes*

I'm not trying to show attitude but, this is super lame question ever lor!

Can you try something new?

FYI,  I trim my fringe for only RM 5! super cheap right! 

She is a professional lor. If whole head is RM 45 for college or university student. 

hehe.. The style she cut i like!! I just like the way she cut...

So i did my rebonding and haircut only at her saloon!

worth it!

I'm getting my new phone and new lappy this week. 

Any idea if Lenovo ,HP, or Fujitsu better??

Will update again after I got my new phone and lappy!

Stay tuned! :))

Dilemma♥

I'm now in kind of dilemma stage.

I don't know how should I handle or to react.

Something just came back to my mind.

It's kind of jealous yet envy.

Forget it! I shouldn't have rewind all this unwanted memory.

It's just happen to saw it when I link to my babe♥ Facebook.

What should I do??

Okay, whatever.. Shall change topic and divert my attention from the particular person.

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Well..As my last post mentioned.

I've done with my Paediatrics attachment and I remembered I had promise to upload some particular photo about my cute colleagues!

Yea..Here you go!

She is the lovely & motherly CI Yoges that I have been always mention...

i Lurve her to the maxxx!

Catherine was the representative for the 'ceremony'.

*Please kindly ignore the dude who're gossiping behind :x*

It was actually a Custom-made mug from us, and her name was actually printed on it!!

Hees! I hope she'll remembered me for life!!

Yoges means alots to me!

Behind the scene!! OMGGG!! It's exclusive!

My super unglamorous picture.....:x

FYI, we actually asked the housekeeper to took all these photos for us.

The housekeeping named 'Candra' if I'm not mistaken, of course this is not the fulled name =.=

Which make Joshua and Catherine 'Fall in Love' with him!!!

HAHAHAHA XD

That was the funniest joke of the day!!

They even said that the ID photo is much more handsome and look like a doctor.

Yoges was shocked and get scare by their unusual behavior.

As in who will target and observe on a housekeeper?

As a CI or a staff or the ward, she don't even give him a damn mann!!

What's the attractiveness from him??

He took this photo when all of us are not ready!!

I not going to upload all the photo of the day, as he took our photo when we are not ready or really unglam.

Lastly, this is the nicest photo of the day!

From left to right, start from the back. 1 word for each of us from CI will be include!

Sze-Chin(Hero), Gerrard(GodFather), Joshua(Handsome), Hidayah(SoftSpoken), Catherine(Sunshine), HuiMin(Knowledgeble),

Pauline(Doll), Liona(Stern), CI Yoges, NorLia(Quiet), LingLing(Caring), Mii(princess), KS(Adorable!)

FYI, all of them is so much elder than me..

Oops~ No offend ar!!

The estimated age is 30++ 

So I'm the one who being protected and pampered by them (-^^-)

Happy-ING!♥

I'll definitely miss them and hope to work together!!

Paediatrics Attachment♥

Must really jiayous tml! Cos tomorrow is my last day for paediatrics attachment.... I enjoy working with 11 of YOU! Thou, our age is so far apart, but i don't feel any age gap between us. And of cause not to forget, my CI Yoges!! Thanks for your patience and guidances, i change my view of life...Thanks for the pairs of listening ears and sorry to make you cry, I felt so much relieve after telling you all the things and experiences.  

It's fun to actually work with different age and group of people. I see a lots of differences between each other. I had fun! The only things that i not comfortable is dealing with kids! haha... cos is kind of heartache when you see all those small kids undergo different kinds of procedure, and we seems like the one who torturing them. I do feel like crying when i hold their 4 limbs to prevent them from escaping from the 'torture chamber'.

So I promised myself, I'll never ever choose to work in Paediatrics. I would like to try oncology instead. Will try to upload some group photo if I possible to take any of it tomorrow!

Cherish & Appreciated!! Thanks alots!♥

請快點讓它結束♥

一個禮拜終於過去了
只剩下兩個禮拜的煎熬

雖然期間有幾度的失落
淚一度差點奪眶而出
但我相信我一定能順利的度過的

與一群的大哥哥和大姐姐一起工作
或者一個人工作的差別是什麽？

一個人工作
雖然別人看不到你
又或者說不會理踩你
但至少我曾經安全的度過了

而與一群大哥哥大姐姐一起工作
卻有了
莫名的失落感

或許是因為年齡的關係
他們就很理所當然的被視為‘大人’
就自然的很安然的度過
而因為我是裏面最小的那個
甚至是已經夠格做他們的兒女了

在他們之間
我的自卑感回來了
我感到比我一個人工作時更加的壓力
間接的發覺
自己非常不被重視與待遇的反差比較
非常的強大

再加上
我根本進入不了他們的話題
我希望這次能夠快點過去

我已經累了
我不想再拖了

請快點讓它結束！

雲霄飛車♥

最近的心情

就和雲霄飛車一樣

時好時壞

好想找她來聊聊天

但是

心裡還有有點介懷……

好擔心自己

是否高攀得起

雖然她說他很樂意

她也很希望

我們彼此能夠像以往一樣那麼友好

但是

實際上的我們之間

還是有那麼點距離

從以前到現在

常常都很羡慕她與她那一群朋友

我就會開始後悔當初的決定

因為我的大方

處處為他著想

我寧可一個人到一個陌生的環境

因而將我們的距離疏遠

怨誰？

早熟

思前想後

換來的是什麽？

我真的不瞭解

除了繼續在旁默默的為她祝福

我還能怎樣……

我累了

如果我選擇了那個自私的決定

現在的我們會是怎樣？

M.U.T.E.

If you're my readers, I think you've read my post called 'A.L.O.N.E.'.
Apparently, I've move that particular post to my another private blog which can be assess only by ME!

I feel that we got no privacy at all.
FYI, one of my friend who just anyhow mention about her life on her blog, yet being brought up and kena warning.
I feel so unfair for her!

Don't ever let me who is the backstabber! I will curse you for life!
So i decide to bring down the post which i was venting my anger towards my S****L...
You Know I Know will do kay...
I don't want to being called up to office to have 'High-Tea' with that bitch!

There's no fairness in her eyes I think...
she expects us to be mute is it??!

Fuck her with her super traditional minds bitch!!
if you don't accept any comment from other you will never be a better person!
might as well just distinguish or evaporate!
you're not young anymore!
GROW UP!!!

If this is what you want us to do..
FINE! We'll be a BISU then!

是否♥

是否只要努力過    就能夠沒有遺憾

是否只要付出過    就能夠得償所願

是否只要努力過    就能夠讓人看到

是否只要不埋怨    就能夠活的更好

 

有什麽事是理所當然的？

有什麽事是讓人開心的？

 

付出與努力的結果換回來的是什麽？

不由得你來選擇…

 

這並不是二選一的抉擇，

是在於

那顆心

 

有多卑微……

 

人就是那麼的卑微

人就看到你的過錯

人就是不能體諒你

人就是看不到你的好

 

如果人生有的選擇

你會如何抉擇？

 

♥