有些♥

有些人

有些事

不是你我所能控制的

 这句话

我真的不知道

我说了多少篇

可是就还是一直那样的告诉自己

有些事

不是你想要做到

就能做到的

有些话

不是想说出口

就能说的

有些地方

不是你想去

就去得到的

有些人

不是你想见

就见得到的

有些事的发生

不是你我希望的

也不能预知的

有些话

或许说出口会很伤人

也很不想听到

但又不想被瞒着

有些地方

你很想去   却又怕

去了 

会更伤心

有些人

你不想让他走

但终究

他还是走了

有些事

终是很矛盾

很复杂

有时候

真的

很伤心

很心痛

但是

这就是真心

一种付出

善意的谎言

并没有帮助

谎言

只是另一种

掩饰自己

的方式

而不是

要他人不为你担心

真的

很多时候

很多人

很多事

很多时候

在很多地点

所发生的一切一切

不是你我

所能去控制的

“未来

还是要面对的”

总是乐观的这样告诉自己

但往往

两排泪水

总这样不受控制的流下来

我不能去操纵

他人的生命

亦不能去改变

一个人

我不能去将时间

倒流

亦不能因为某些回忆

不去某些地方

一切一切事情

都会一直前进着

不会因为我一人

而停留

流逝着的一切一切

我来不及

做的事情

说的话语

去的地方

想见的人

事实

总是被包装得

那么虚伪

一切都那么的

堂皇

讽刺

戴着面具的人

终认为

这一切的决定

是为了把伤害减到最低

但不然

面具

只会让人

晕眩

迷失方向

忘记了自己

那是

一个人的生活………

DAYS♥

this is all about DAYS

miss those days.

we study together

we quarrel together

having fun together.

is just all about WE all together.

2 gangs of friends.

they are so cute right?

hehe XD

at least in my eyes.

cherish♥

they are my besties forever♥

this is what i can say at the moment

.........................

after all,

this is what a relieve for 3 paper over.

only 1 left.

childbearing.

it's psychological killing me.

although psychology had over just now.

childbearing is a tough subject ever for me.

following by sociology.

my instinct tell me that,

i will failed my sociology and get the sub-paper.

i know you guys would probably ask me not to think in such a way.

it's quite depress.

but,

it's true.

it is worse than my BIO paper.

hope i could cope my last paper - CHILDBEARING on thursday.

wish me luck♥

gtg to revise my childbearing liaoz~

byesssss♥

BUCKED UP♥

who is gonna to determine who deserve a better rewards and who not??

erm ok..

just somethings that really random.

feel like blogging from the revision of psychology for tomorrow.

were super random these few days.

somehow feel like i'm invisble 

transparent.

sometimes,

things maybe different when you treat it with a different manner or different ways.

"To be or not to be, that's a question"

yea.

found this quote very interesting.

things may be always differ when you did a different decision.

that's a path you choose to go on.

it's your own choice.

no one is forcing you to do so.

there will be always a choice for you.

there is no way for you to regret.

you may have miss some precious moment

or

someone who is really important to you.

try to grab every chances that you deserve.

you may have one chances,

2nd chance

but not the 3rd.

people don't deserve to have the 3rd chance as he/she don;t appreciate what they are having, holding in their hand.

they tend to think this is what they deserve, 

they should have it.

what a great god thought they have.

no pain=no gain

nothing come without hardship.

how much you put in,

how much you will get it.

yea.

just something really random.

so now.

bucked up!!

back to my topic~

psychology!!

JiaYous everyone♥

x o x o

STUPID PHONE♥

haiis

nth much to say.

and been a long time nvr update my stupid bloggie.

i add up STUPID tis word to all my stuff.

including my stupid HP.

SE C510

cos it spoilt for nth!

and i had just use for 8 mths.

imaging how angry i m when i noe my phone are not working anymore?

anyway it is still under waranty,

but if they found tat it is self damage as in drop damage or water,etc. 

den i hav to pay for the sevicing..

but still feel unworth.

like cheat me?

anw.

found tat Sony Ericsson is not tat friendly using as wad i noe last time.

cos all my friend were using SE,

but nth happen.

but for those recent model

all spoilt in no time..

like my frenz QL.

her W595

just spoilt

and gor C905

oso spoilt tis morning

like WTH..

damn sienz for all these stupid things lo..

fine..

gonna waitfor 3 working days and see wad they say..

hope it will be fine.

or else i hav to use my nokia phone again.

eventhough i dun like it.

cos

the button is too hard and slow for me to sms.

i dun like tat kind of things.

but there do still hav sth tat i like which is the battery life..

it can last for 2 days if i kip on sms.

not bad rite..

erm~

gtg ler..

still so not prepare for my exam sociology which is at 4pm later.

but i dun think i can study at home.

cos there is so much distraction.

sud bath and off to school library and stay at e study area,

which hav no distraction..

sud can memorise more~

ciaoz^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY♥

firstly, 

Happy Birthday to Mummy♥

48 yrs old liao.

i had nvr been forget any impt people bdae in my life.

if i remember yours, doesn't mean ur bdae is easy to remember.

but u r the person who means a lots to me in my life.

you stay and act a vr important roles in my life.

there i already a list of impt person in my life in my mind.

not goin to write it out.

you knows who you are.

and i will definitely keep it to myself.

it'a a secret.

been busy since i come back from S'pore.

making cookies and all CNY stuff.

even i dun take tis occasion as an impt one for me.

but haven't touch on any of my books yet.

friday wil be my sem exam le.

but i'm still so not prepare.

gonna failed for modules?

hopefully not. 

i swear i will chiong at least the day before exam.

at least passed for the border line?

*pray hard*

CNY plan change.

but not goin to tell,

mayb tell after CNY.

my blog entries are vr dull recently.

no picx were shared.

cos of my laziness.

anw,

not much people view oso.

Happy Chinese New Year

& 

Happy Valentines Day♥

心♥

心是真的会累的

没有原因的累

有些时候

心情真的很低落

但

总想不到是什么原因

能让自己那么沮丧

其实

不是自己不知道

只是潜意识里

不想让自己理清这一切

今天

没去上学

也没去做工

早上

躺着看着时间

起不来

头很痛

人很累

心很累

爬不起来

平常比别人睡的还要久

但却比任何人的黑眼圈还要深

还要累

我终于知道了

原因

其实

就很简单

我的头脑一直以来

比任何人还来得清楚

各个事情

只是自己封闭自己

逃避现实

造成

只有在睡眠中

才能面对最真实的自己

理清事情的一切一切

所以睡得越多

越累

越怕

越担心

开始怕自己

我觉得

我不是我自己

那种感觉你懂吗？

已经猜不透

自己的思想

就好像朋友很喜欢说

我心理变态

不管是真的还是开玩笑

我

真的很认同

我深怕

下一秒谁会被我害

我随时面临崩溃状态

一个人搭地铁

还会飚泪

一个人的房里

跟自己讲话

等等等……

太多太多

说不完

一个人

跟

一群人

的差别

能看到的

总是不一样的我……

我♥

开心与不开心

仅限于

一线之间

虚拟与真实

也不仅仅如此

不是每个人都开心的

即使是

那是真的还是假的？

又有谁能分得清楚？

面具

有些时候真的很好用

但是面具后面

有多么的疲惫

有些时候

也有想卸下面具

正面地对待

但是

这是不可能的

人

距离

越来越远

心也越来越小……

STEAMBOAT♥

had a great day with my babes♥

thx for BeiBei come at fetch me at 7pm

went to e same place to makan.

but before that went to TUTA pasar malam hav a walk.

i din go there b4..

so sua gu rite?

hehe~

cos my parents din go there de mah.

den  YokeMei buy a belt and Bei buy a bag.

at last i din get anything as usual.

den went for steamboat lor..

none of them hav reach.

den we just start our 1st round eating lor.

As Peishan and me hungry till dunno wad liao..

met Esther, JingLu jie jie , etc.

hav a nice chat when all of them reach..

den kip laughing like mad..

vr siaoz tat kind lor..

hehe~

kaira went off early.

den MJ and YF din eat lor.

as YF is  a vegetarian.

den he just come and chat wid us lor..

how nice ya~

long time din met up my galz.

feel so happy sia~

i eat damn much today..

yet i still hungry at the moment..

hahaha♥

den went back at 10pm.

QW sent me home..

Thanks my babes♥

Seriously goin to miss u all again~

argh~~

how i hope u all are always by my side..

erm~

actually were doin my essay.

but it make me headache.

found tat, 

blog is much more easier den writing e stupid essay.

i tin i hav write out the content,

to be done soon. 

but i feel like it is super irrelevant tat kind lor..

cos i just directly extract the 1st paragraph form e module.

i just anyhow do it even i noe it is a graded essay.

but wad to do?

i realli dont know how to write mah..

at least i gt write?

okie lar~

gtg ler~

goin back sg earlier tml.

for the purpose of the essay last editing and add on.

also to study for the SBL on monday.

hope everything go smoothly♥

JY everyone♥

I‘M BACK♥

yeah~

i'm back!!

my loyal stalker!!

u noe who u r..

anw i dun care le.

as wad u all noe

actually were posted another entry earlier on.

just havent change of the setting.

but now u r allow to read my bloggie again!!

V(-^^-)V

but i m damn lazy to update my routine tis few days.

cos it will be a vvr long post if i do so..

and it will be more or less similar to QL and Coco♥

den wud be writing another essay with the same title?!

haha

damn sick to do such things again.

i think i just make it short and sweet bah..

since i still have another essay to worry abt.

well..

ytd went to e basketball court to watch BEV, QL, play wid WY+G~

den i were lying around there 

and looking the sky.

feel better and relax

u will turns in a better mood after u look at it,

even it is vr  vr hot.

vr nice right?

den took some of my gals picx from a lying position..

look like lesbird sia..

play sissors,paper,stone wid WY.

in the end,

my poor hand look like braised pork hand?

so red

den went makan lo..

********

went AMK HUB again,.

played Ju-Beat♥

addicted liao..

den my gals went to buy KOI..

suprisingly,

i'm not buying..

cos i been spending too much le..

went back to skul and slack during PNPE..

guess no one were listening attentively?

yea..

cos no exam for tat module after all.

and the lecturer like to give her story of..

bla bla bla...

which no one care abt..

after that, 

went home lor..

but the super wind nearly blew me away?

i couldnt stand properly lor..

den i walked home under the shelter

but there is still a short distance tat do not hav the shelter..

den i suay suay de..

whrn i reach there, 

it start heavy rain!!

like WTH!

den i just vr 潇洒 like tat walked back

totally wet lor..

and it still driping..

oh ya~

thx for the caring driver..

he actually stop and let me passed through 1st cos i m under the rain..

i tin he hope i can go under the building asap?

hehe~♥

den went back to bathe..

before tat,

i still on my lappy and start FB-ing

haha~

think tat my floor was wet too.

after i bathe 

den went out to buy my dinner.

bought the noodle at S-11 again..

and

KOI!!

i cant tahan anymore..

c all of them drinking but i'm not..

had KOI's ice-cream milk tea.

lurveeees it lar♥

hehehe~

okie lar~

gtg le

hav to wash my wet clothes

and do my essay liao..

some random picx♥

aiyaya~

can't wait to go back JB tml lar!

miss my galz!

and e steamboat session♥