心♥

心是真的会累的

没有原因的累

有些时候

心情真的很低落

但

总想不到是什么原因

能让自己那么沮丧

其实

不是自己不知道

只是潜意识里

不想让自己理清这一切

今天

没去上学

也没去做工

早上

躺着看着时间

起不来

头很痛

人很累

心很累

爬不起来

平常比别人睡的还要久

但却比任何人的黑眼圈还要深

还要累

我终于知道了

原因

其实

就很简单

我的头脑一直以来

比任何人还来得清楚

各个事情

只是自己封闭自己

逃避现实

造成

只有在睡眠中

才能面对最真实的自己

理清事情的一切一切

所以睡得越多

越累

越怕

越担心

开始怕自己

我觉得

我不是我自己

那种感觉你懂吗？

已经猜不透

自己的思想

就好像朋友很喜欢说

我心理变态

不管是真的还是开玩笑

我

真的很认同

我深怕

下一秒谁会被我害

我随时面临崩溃状态

一个人搭地铁

还会飚泪

一个人的房里

跟自己讲话

等等等……

太多太多

说不完

一个人

跟

一群人

的差别

能看到的

总是不一样的我……

我♥

开心与不开心

仅限于

一线之间

虚拟与真实

也不仅仅如此

不是每个人都开心的

即使是

那是真的还是假的？

又有谁能分得清楚？

面具

有些时候真的很好用

但是面具后面

有多么的疲惫

有些时候

也有想卸下面具

正面地对待

但是

这是不可能的

人

距离

越来越远

心也越来越小……

STEAMBOAT♥

had a great day with my babes♥

thx for BeiBei come at fetch me at 7pm

went to e same place to makan.

but before that went to TUTA pasar malam hav a walk.

i din go there b4..

so sua gu rite?

hehe~

cos my parents din go there de mah.

den  YokeMei buy a belt and Bei buy a bag.

at last i din get anything as usual.

den went for steamboat lor..

none of them hav reach.

den we just start our 1st round eating lor.

As Peishan and me hungry till dunno wad liao..

met Esther, JingLu jie jie , etc.

hav a nice chat when all of them reach..

den kip laughing like mad..

vr siaoz tat kind lor..

hehe~

kaira went off early.

den MJ and YF din eat lor.

as YF is  a vegetarian.

den he just come and chat wid us lor..

how nice ya~

long time din met up my galz.

feel so happy sia~

i eat damn much today..

yet i still hungry at the moment..

hahaha♥

den went back at 10pm.

QW sent me home..

Thanks my babes♥

Seriously goin to miss u all again~

argh~~

how i hope u all are always by my side..

erm~

actually were doin my essay.

but it make me headache.

found tat, 

blog is much more easier den writing e stupid essay.

i tin i hav write out the content,

to be done soon. 

but i feel like it is super irrelevant tat kind lor..

cos i just directly extract the 1st paragraph form e module.

i just anyhow do it even i noe it is a graded essay.

but wad to do?

i realli dont know how to write mah..

at least i gt write?

okie lar~

gtg ler~

goin back sg earlier tml.

for the purpose of the essay last editing and add on.

also to study for the SBL on monday.

hope everything go smoothly♥

JY everyone♥

I‘M BACK♥

yeah~

i'm back!!

my loyal stalker!!

u noe who u r..

anw i dun care le.

as wad u all noe

actually were posted another entry earlier on.

just havent change of the setting.

but now u r allow to read my bloggie again!!

V(-^^-)V

but i m damn lazy to update my routine tis few days.

cos it will be a vvr long post if i do so..

and it will be more or less similar to QL and Coco♥

den wud be writing another essay with the same title?!

haha

damn sick to do such things again.

i think i just make it short and sweet bah..

since i still have another essay to worry abt.

well..

ytd went to e basketball court to watch BEV, QL, play wid WY+G~

den i were lying around there 

and looking the sky.

feel better and relax

u will turns in a better mood after u look at it,

even it is vr  vr hot.

vr nice right?

den took some of my gals picx from a lying position..

look like lesbird sia..

play sissors,paper,stone wid WY.

in the end,

my poor hand look like braised pork hand?

so red

den went makan lo..

********

went AMK HUB again,.

played Ju-Beat♥

addicted liao..

den my gals went to buy KOI..

suprisingly,

i'm not buying..

cos i been spending too much le..

went back to skul and slack during PNPE..

guess no one were listening attentively?

yea..

cos no exam for tat module after all.

and the lecturer like to give her story of..

bla bla bla...

which no one care abt..

after that, 

went home lor..

but the super wind nearly blew me away?

i couldnt stand properly lor..

den i walked home under the shelter

but there is still a short distance tat do not hav the shelter..

den i suay suay de..

whrn i reach there, 

it start heavy rain!!

like WTH!

den i just vr 潇洒 like tat walked back

totally wet lor..

and it still driping..

oh ya~

thx for the caring driver..

he actually stop and let me passed through 1st cos i m under the rain..

i tin he hope i can go under the building asap?

hehe~♥

den went back to bathe..

before tat,

i still on my lappy and start FB-ing

haha~

think tat my floor was wet too.

after i bathe 

den went out to buy my dinner.

bought the noodle at S-11 again..

and

KOI!!

i cant tahan anymore..

c all of them drinking but i'm not..

had KOI's ice-cream milk tea.

lurveeees it lar♥

hehehe~

okie lar~

gtg le

hav to wash my wet clothes

and do my essay liao..

some random picx♥

aiyaya~

can't wait to go back JB tml lar!

miss my galz!

and e steamboat session♥

REVIVE♥

yea~

as earlier on...

i private my BLOG without any reason.

and lots of frenz ask why..

basically..

i just reply them,

it's under renovation!!

haha♥

thx for ur concern!

lurvees u all loads!!

nth much to update actually.

cos i had forgotten wad had actually happen.

but the most impt things is that,

the stupid and stressful 2 weeks are finally over!

wakaka♥

i passed my

1. oral medication

2. wound dressing

3. health assessment

4. get a 'B' for BIO practical

appreciate how my girls actually push and help me!!

for the oral medication,

thx loads for u all!!!

wound dressing hav to thx bev and QL♥

kip nag on me and help me to memorise the steps of doin it!

health assessment!

it's so unbelievable♥

i could actually passed!!

Thx Wy senior for teaching us after work,

and wy do come to my hse be my model and let me practise the day before assessment

and oso QL lar!!

i wud nvr forgt u de lor!

cos i suddenly ask u to be my model before i go in the SCARY assess room!

and u agree!!

heehees~

and also vr sorry that,

my hands so cold lor.

lastly!

BIO PRACTICAL!!

BEVERLEY!

nvr ever forgt de lor!

TQ for e consolidation before the test!!

hehe~

nvr ever expected i could actually get a 'B'

but realli vr vr vr sorry lor..

u sud get an 'A'

but bcos of teaching me,

in the end u get onli a'B'

=(

sorry!!!!

oh ya!!

before i forgot!

hav to realli thx my sub grp members who guide me in tis sem2^^

afterall..

finally all of our ICA had over!!

muahaha~

so now hav to prepare the sem exam which is after the CNY le..

sienz lor~

CNY is my study week..

ishhh~

hate it!

lucky lucky lucky~

all my assessment passed for the 1st attempt!

hees^^

sud be happy in the sense.

but they say i look moody all day round in school?

haha~

no worries k =)

i'm not BO SONG of anyone or wad lar~

just like to day-dreaming recently.

erm~

*rewind*

been help my girls to buy Contact lens online~

from JUJULENS on FB.

she is a vr gd and friendly seller that i can say!!

and of cos

i got buy lar!

happy happy~

i tin the girls will get more from her soon!!

erm~

neoprint lor~

dunno why the girls like e neoprint so much sia~

took tis 22/1/10♥ @AMK HUB

my eyes look damn scary sia!

den tis one took when 27/1/10♥ @Bugis Junction

but in tis neoprint,

i look damn bo song tat kind lor~

cos i hav no mood to take picx on that day,

den the gals kip ask me to join them,

den bo bian lor~

den take tgt.

thx QL for helping us to scan it!

hehe~

although the second neoprint she is not in it!

muahaha♥

好人幫到底厚~♥

***************

went back JB last week

JOHOR sultan passed away,

so we nid to put on the 3 inches black strips.

and also tml i tin.

cos i goin back JB tml.

and sud be the last day of putting it on..

i miss my gals sia..

i mean JB de~

but i do miss the SG de lar~

dun jeolous ar~

haha~

JB ,SG gals

sounds so wrong~

wadever lar!!

finally my blog revive!!

but vr not organise lar...

我要開始沉睡了……

這次的我…

一滴淚都沒流下……

或許……

人是注定要

戴著面具生活的……
如果你不小心看到這句話
請不要問我到底發生什麽事
安靜就好……

still the same

I ♥ Being Lurvees♥

BUSY♥

Been so busy recently,

so many things to prepared and study for.

S-T-R-E-S-S

everyone feel so stressful.

ishhh~

feel so bad..

as usual

i'm human without soul.

muahaha♥

izit a gd sign or?

anw.

someone noes the reason of why i been behave like tat.

anw.

nvr update my blog for such a long time.

kip on neglect it.

feel tired for these 2 weeks.

i cant smile nor laugh loudly.

emo all the way.

i hate myself from being like tat..

how i hope i can just hide all my inner feeling

i mean dont show it on my face

haha~

izit possible?

i'm trying vr hard from now on.

but no matter how i try to hide my innermost feeling.

there is still one person

who can actually read my mind.

or to say he now me too well?

yes.

i do really think so.

tats y i cant hide anytin from him.

well~

gtg.

Wenyan is coming to my place tml to practice on HA.

Bye♥

shall update somethings which overdue

1 week later♥

有些事，一輩子♥

有些事

一轉身就是一輩子

有些人

一直沒機會見

等有機會見了

卻又猶豫了……

相見不如不見

有些事

一直沒機會做

等有機會了

卻又不想做了……

有些話

埋藏在心中好久

沒機會說

等有機會說的時候

卻説不出口了……

有些愛

一直沒機會愛

等有機會了

已經不愛了……

有些人

很多機會相見的

卻縂找藉口推脫

相見的時候

已經沒機會了……

有些話

很多機會說的

卻想著以後再説

要說的時候

已經沒機會了……

有些事

很多機會做的

卻一天一天推遲

想做的時候卻發現沒機會了……

有些愛

給了你很多機會

卻不在意

沒在乎

像重視的時候

已經沒機會愛了……

………………

窺視

淹沒干逝去的回憶

人生有時候

總是很諷刺

一轉身可能就是一世

説好永遠的

不知怎麽就散了……

最後自己想來想去

竟然也搞不清

當初

是什麽原因分開彼此的

然後

你忽然醒悟

感情原來是這麽脆弱的……

經得起風雨

卻經不起平凡

風雨同船

天晴便各自散了

也許只是賭氣

也許只是因爲小小的事

………………

幻想著和好的甜蜜

或

重逢時的擁抱

那個時候會使

邊流淚邊捶打對方

還傻笑著

該是多美的畫面♥

沒想到的是

一別竟是一輩子了……

……………………

於是

各有各的生活

各自愛著別的人

曾經相愛

現在已互不相干

即使在同一個小小的城市

也不曾再相逢

某一天

某一刻

走在同一條街

也看不見對方……

先是感嘆

後來是無奈……

也許…

你很幸福

因爲找到另一個適合自己的人

也許…

你不幸福

因爲可能你這一生

就只有那個人真正用心在你身上

很久很久

沒有對方的消息

也不再想起這個人……

也是

不想再想起這些

♥

學會珍惜身邊的每一個人

或許

那都會成爲記憶的美好♥