想哭♥

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突然好想哭

今天一整天的心情其实都不怎么好

但是

还是笑了

笑真的很累

吵朋友陪我去k歌

第一次像疯子般的乱唱

间中

差点就流泪了

但都忍了下来

想要个拥抱

想要发泄

想要哭泣

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NAH NAH NAH♥

>>MY BLOG<< 

Well~

went back Seremban on Friday evening 

in order to 'sao mu'on Saturday early morning.

as usual, 

we bing back our own tilam and pillow, blankets as well.

then, we whole family sleep in the living room.

yea,

that place is where we usually spent our night.

sis & me were the one who sleep on the sofa,

it's freaking hot!

i sweat the whole night and make me chouldn't sleep at all!

and end up MSN by using my mobile device.

and it just cost for RM3/MTH

yea~

it's cheap.

but too bad

there were no one for me to kacau.

so

no point for doing so.

try very hard to turn in as have to wake up early in the morning

but the sofa was too small and make me nearly fall on the floor where Dad just sleep at that place.

and finally morning come.

bath and get ready and set out.

the weather is super hot and burn my skin!!

turn into roast pig >_<

1st - Great-Grandparents (on so-called hills)

2nd - Grandpa (in tower??)

when we pray at e 1st place,

is effing hot!

and is high!

have to climb...

2nd place was better

den after all,

we went for restaurant to have or lunch.

my uncle on house!

had shark fin soup.

nom nom nom~~

after that, go home and packed buy some food then come back JB le!!

sorry guys~

no picx on recently post.

because my lappy wasn't with me.

and the lappy which i currently using is my sis old lappy and the bluetooth device had spoilt.

so i can't transfer any picx from my mobile to lappy~

will update more picx soon!!

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RICH & POOR♥

 >>MY BLOG<<

There is always some different for Rich and Poor people.

everyone loves money~

you can get anything that you desire to own it on your fingertips

if~

and only if you are rich enough to pay.

reality=cruel
no pain=no gain

no hardship= no money

so yea.

lets work hard for money!!!♥

>>MY BLOG<< 

心碎的声音♥

>>MY BLOG♥<< 

心碎的声音是怎样的

你知道吗？

很久没有的感觉回来了

心痛

仿佛听见了心碎的声音

心的裂缝

看不见

就像

流水无痕

虽然看不见

但他确实存在着

想去走走

散散心

不需要多

就一两个就好

能够让我畅所欲言

我在乎

重要的人

就好

不为娱乐

纯粹为了

散心

因为心情

总是好不起来

假笑

很累

去那里不重要，重要的是，陪我去的人……

>>MY BLOG♥<<

希望?♥

希望越大

失望越大

希望->失落

希望落空

心情不好

突然想讲

“甘醇蜜酿”

BLUR♥

>>MY BLOG<<
I'm super BLUR today!!

i take my spec and contact lens solution

then i place it on my table instead of putting it into my bag!!

ya,

i have no spec + CL solution now!!

my eyes is like ==

haha~

mi mi yan~

bo bian lar~

tml goin to visit my poor QL at Tan Tock Seng Hospital~

she got pneumonia

hope she get well soon =D

den we can hang out tgt♥
>>MY BLOG<<

你知道我在等你吗♥

 >>MY BLOG♥<<

我知道   有些错过

有些失去

会是一生的痛

这杯为爱而酿的甘醇    自斟自饮

也曾感受过那份为爱而生的痛

是那样的不可抑制     是一种痛彻心肺的伤

就让无限的深情

在这字里行间尽情的挥洒

让这因爱而生的伤感渐渐的成为人生历程中最美的风景......

日出日落

一天天的轮回

人间在上演着一幕幕的喜剧悲剧

我的爱情鸟飞走了

我的心也成了一颗空心

透明

看不见曾经的伤痕

幸乎？

哀叹

笑容快乐如常泪暗流......

一个人独坐门前阶梯上
痴痴地等
傻傻地想
凝望远空悠走的云彩
什么时候是你的归期？
好累
等一个人好累
爱一个人好累
好想好想永远一个人无牵无挂
真的真的好累 心好累
哪里是我的心泊港湾？

你在哪里？
那重重叠叠的远影是我们曾经的快乐么？

只能看只能想却握不住抓不住
风轻拂我的发丝
裙角飘逸如初
而心早已不是那时的心

累累伤痕
快乐早不知在何处
孤独的背影寂寂寥的心情
落寞......

那夜的雨下得好心慌
那夜的你疲惫得令人好心痛

那夜的我在雨中好寂寥
那夜的我哭得好心伤

那夜的我们紧紧相拥
那夜的我们似乎回到从前

那夜耳边不停地回响着……

“如果再回到从前”
醉生梦死酒在哪里？
孟婆汤在哪里？
谁能给我？

 

叶落
悄悄地飘落
在风中轻轻地回旋飘悠

满地的叶
沙沙声中相思起
想你想得好心痛

心碎如片片飘零的孤叶
散了......

是否该放弃了
是否该离去了

风起花舞的日子
一季季来了又去
却始终等不到你的心归

失落了　
心　彻底地失落了
唉......

从别人那里看到的

个人很喜欢♥

好东西要大家一起分享的^_^

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假装♥

有些事情

不是我不知道

不是我看不到

我只是选择逃避

不想去面对

假装看不到

不知道

那样的我

或许会比较好受

>>MY BLOG<<

砸♥

 >>MY BLOG♥<<

有时候想想

是不是也该和自己说对不起

自己对自己做了些什么事

但却忽略了

往往只想起对别人做了什么事

而感到抱歉

自己是不是应该更爱自己一点？

有些时候

不是自己对自己不好

而是方式错误了

我们总不能总从自己那狭窄的观点去看待事情

那

不一定是对的

或许你认为

这是对你自己好

但是

实际上你却在害自己

慢性谋害自己

**********

有些时候

真的很不想解释

也有很多时候

我都会说

算了

不是我不在乎

而是不懂得如何用言语来表达

又或者

模糊焦点

越描越黑

不想引起误会

不想让你觉得我在掩饰

因为我在乎

*******

等下要去弄头发了

希望不是又说说罢了

要跟我的长发说拜拜咯~~♥

>>MY BLOG♥<<

礼物♥

你送的礼物   会不会太特别

毫不避讳   那不安的传言
但渐行渐远    习惯到    没感觉
难道你早想让我走远

 你送的礼物    在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆   把过往   走一遍
穿了这些年   难免会有淤点
就像每段爱总会有终点

这两段

完全能够清楚的反映着我的心情

心情是不安的

很想很想他

这两天

真的很失落

心也很痛

很努力着

忍住泪水

是没有哭

但眼睛却很浮肿

这种'安宁'的日子

可以过多久？

我总是不敢去面对眼前的这一切

还有41天

就那么仅仅的41天

他就要向我走远了

回归一个人的生活

那种感受

又有谁能够了解，体会？

眼看着

日子

时间

一分一秒的流逝着

多想把握这些我抓不到的时间

做一些事

唯一能安慰自己的

是

回忆♥

至少

是美好的

我不知道

回到

以前一个人的生活

我会过得怎样

我能不能够负荷

那种压力

烦恼

没人帮我分担

没人带我去玩

没人陪我看戏

没人陪我逛街

没人给我劝告

没人陪我吃饭

没人抱着我哭

没人跟我讲话

没人给我拥抱 

没人让我欺负

没人逗我开心

没人对我生气

没人替我着想

没人骂我笨死

没人……

真的

会很很很怀念

我知道

我自己无法接受事实

我知道

我会欺骗自己

就算你

不在我身边陪我做这些

我们常会一起做的事

我

还是会自己

去完成我们例常会做的事

一个人去看电影

一个人去看风景

一个人去麦当劳

一个人去玩游戏

一个人去买东西

一个人去吃寿司

一个人去吹海风

一个人哭着笑着

一个人拿着电话

一个人自己说话

一个人解决问题

一个人看着笑脸

一个人搭着高铁

一个人学习成长

一个人……

回到

躲进棉被里哭得那个我

不说话的我

不想再次伪装

不想再次戴上面具

真的很疲累

累得

我快喘不过气

就像

快窒息一样

时间

你可以为我停留吗?

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END♥

Yea

3 weeks finally end♥

these 3 weeks really torturing me!!

erm~

i'm not the only one who think so.

anyway,

it's O-V-E-R!

i got another 4 weeks of vacation start from today!

^^

ytd,

last day of my attachment were on afternoon shift.

and those morning shift went to celebrate without me =(

they had a feast at Sakura.

argh!!!

i want sakura too~

sashimi, oyster,......etc

then after i knocked off at 9pm.

i straight away come back to JB fro NUH!

tiring.

and i reach home at 1200am.

hahahahaXD

cos today goin to attend to my officer wedding.

Mdm.Chloe Ching & Mr.Kiwi Kwan♥

din manage to take any picx of them.

cos...

they are lots of ppl!!

 Congratulations!!!

erm~

quite emo recently.

and i noe why.

but dun ask me why.

cos i wont be telling u, u, and U why.

mayb u will noe me..

ya YOU!

haiis.

as i said earlier on.

4 weeks more to go.

think will go back to S'pore a few days later to look for some part time job.

cos,

i need money.

everyone need money.

hate money sial!!!!

looong time din see u liao.

miss u sial.

actually not that long lar.

but,

i feel like quite long ady.

and u like emo also these two days.

don't even talk to me.

call me also silent din talk.

hope everything going smoothly lar!!

 wanna meet you!

^^ 

自己♥

我可以很很很讨厌自己

TIRED♥

seriously vr vr vr tired.

i like and dislike morning shift!!!

Advantage

got things to do

time flies

Disadvantage

put in more energy

wake up damn early as 4am

go back late if the presentation delayed.

and i'm now freaking tired sial.

2 more days to go.

no more morning shift tomorrow onwards! =)

afternoon~

muahaha

but....

friday have to see them knocked off at 3pm and celebrate their attachment end,

but i still hav to work until 9pm=(

aiya..

don't care lar..

since wont be so tired.

i'm ok with it.

jiayous

counting down!!

CASE STUDY♥

i'M now finally done with my case study!!!

YES!

spent 4 hrs working on 4 and a half page of case study.

hope will go smoothly tomorrow.

=)

gtg to catch some sleep le..

have to leave home as early as 10am for afternoon shift which is start at 1pm

=(

then thursday will be morning shift at 7am but have to leave my place at 5am.

which means i have to wake up at 4am.

imagine.

a pig like me.

who lurve to sleep a lots.

sleep=life

OMG~

tomorrow going  to reach home after work at around 11+pm 

then have to hand wash my uniform.

do all stuff then will be roughly 12.30am only then i can turn in.

then still have to wake up at 4am on the next day!!!

only 3.30 hrs of sleep!!

how can!!

hopefully i wont dozed off on thursday!

*Pray Hard*

Nitez♥

BUSY OR STUPID♥

i'M trying darn hard to do something.

but am i stupid or idiot or just make myself busy?

teehees~

i'M now multitasking

FB-ing

editing photo

uploading photo

SMS-ing

review case notes

doin case study

Blog-ING!!

muahaha♥

i'M GOD!!

well done

marvellous!!

praise myself?

i siaoz le.

send me to IMH thank you~

ONE WEEK♥

One week is finally over.

but i'M still stuck with the case study that i should present on this coming wednesday.

stupid right?

attachment still have to present for such a long time.

think like we have nothing to do??

do you know that how difficult for us to find some time to look into the patient case note while the patient is busy than us to many different precedure and the case note will be down with them?

i'M damn dead at the moment.

Fucking idiot sial!

yes,

i turn vulgar at this moment.

cos i can't tahan anymore.

i just want these 3 weeks over ASAP.

better in a blink!

wanted to go out.

but still have lots of stuff to be done,

and make me din even went back to JB.

hate it!!

seriously.

today JB got CHINGAY.

wanted to go with friends and gor de.

but don't think mummy will allow me to go.

so i don't bother to ask also,

cos there will be always an answer  'NO'.

so what for to ask again?

okies.

fine.

i just wanted to vent.

so this post will be lots of my complaints!!!

endure...

over and over again.

ATTACHMENT♥

Today isn't my day.

i'M so sienz and freaking tired.

feel like look for some path to vent out all my anger.

or to say.

aiya.

dunno lar!

anyway,

today is the 2nd day of posting at NUH WARD 54.

is a Orthoepedics ward

but my heart is at WARD 58

same goes to CheuPing.

haiis.

we both like miss there loads till don't feel like doing anything in the current ward?

haha.

but we still do lar.

the did simple wound dressing today.

but i didn't

think tomorrow should have the chance.

hope i won't goes wrong and end up amputation.

tomorrow CI going to assess us for the physical examination!

WTH!

i tot we are free on HA already.

yet,

tomorrow still have to perform.

when the CI told us,

we all like stun there,

no more strength and semangat to carry on.

and next week wednesday is my turns to present.

it's a 30-45 mins presentation.

and is an individual work!!

guess i going to die due to it!

anything lar.

i don't seems do my job nicely.

and tensed up.

need to bucked up!!

if not i failed for this module den have to repeat all over again!

think i will jump if i failed??

it's a very heavy module that i can say.

so many things need to remember and to be assess in school and also clinical.

gtg.

revise?

but i'M damn tired and hungry now.

bye♥